feeling low and insecure, tired and no energy

SatNaam Dandauth Bandhan To Sangat.

 

just sharing a reply we sent:

 

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Why do we need gian?  Because without it we cant make sense of anything at all, why were we born, why were we
tormented, why we were so dumb as to do bad deeds, why we cant get rid of negative feelings, why we struggle,
why we are tired all the time.
 
Gian is a gift of God to Himself.  Gian is the highest spiritual experience.  Guru Arjun Dev ji says that the shabad i.e. the word,
the Gian, supports the mind like a column supports the roof.  So without Gian/shabad/SatNaam/Gurbani our mind is like a collapsed house.   We scramble around trying to make sense of things through our own experiences and education, but even that leads to dead ends.  So that is why Guru Nanak Dev ji says that without a Guru there is no Gian - the Brahm Gian comes through the Brahm Giani into the world.  The BrahmGiani is another word for Guru, or Sant, or Bhagat or Khalsa etc. They spend every second absorbed in Brahm - BrahmGiani ka Brahm Dhian.  And what do the deliver to the world - Brahmgiani ka bhojan gian - the Brahm giani's food is Gian.
 
So Dassan Dass ji has delivered Brahm Gian on the website, for him it is eanred from the highest union with Brahm.  For us though it is just knowledge.  It helps us to make sense of our mind, but it only supports our mind when we put it into practise.  Then it becomes the columns that support our mind.   That is your challenge, to go from being an unsupported mind, to a strong mind with the support fo Brahm Gian - Gur Mat  and give up our own fake columns of own wisdom - man mat.
 
We understand much better now that w are 40, than when we were 18 and entered onto a spiritual path - amritdhari.   We had great struggles and knew nothing, but God-Guru has helped this far, we even entered the divine Light by His Grace when we got the correct Gian from a sant.  We messed up though by going back into maya, and then 8 yrs ago Dassan Dass ji started emailing us and all that Gian is on the website satnaam.info .   Getting up at 1 am is the hardest thing to do , we have built up to it only in the last year, and have fallen back many times since then as well.  but its by God's grace only.   Along the way we have had to learn to deal with family entaglements, slander from sikh community, problems in marriage, kids illnesses, hating my job, almost becoming broke, becoming addicted to bad lust habits, becoming hateful and resentful,  you mention it, we seem to have made all the  mistakes, but we have leanred from them, got up, found a solution, moved on and somehow have got cleaned up - only by God Gurus grace.
 
So that is the path - we all are lost and confused to start with,  we all face pressured of society and what others think, face bullying and teasing and 101 other problems.  some face them worse than others, some deal withthem better than others.  We all have different and unique karma that has brought us into this life, so we all have to go through our unique and different journey.  No point compalinging or getting upset about what has happened in our life, if we believe in karma, then we only reaped what WE SOWED - we made it happen for ourself.  But what saves us is His Kindness, His kirpa. So that is why this journey of life is not to be seen as a struggle and bad, its actually the struggle that is transforming you within - but only if you hold on to the Brahm Gian.  Then you defeat each and every negative, destructive thought that is rooted in 5 thieves and desires, due to our past karma.

You have to struggle, just like i do , just like everyone else does.  That is what it means to conquor the mind.  And you feel tired and weak and low.   So pray for strength, "satguru ji, you are the strength of the weak, you are my support, you are my rock."  And then keep singing shabad, then go into doing simran.
 
That's how it is, takes time to build the inner palace, one brick at a time, one moment at a time, one utternace of Gods name at a time, one battle with one negative thought at a time.  There are no shortcuts, no one is going to press a magic button to take away all your struggles, because God is the teacher who teaches us to be perfect, so His system is perfect and the process we go through is perfect and takes as long as it takes for us to learn the lesson.
 
Its His gift to Himself when He wakes himself up inside us at 1 am and remembers Himself for 2.5 hrs.  WE CAN NEVER DO IT.  But we can pray, we can keep doing benti to Satguru ji to not forget about us, to bless us continuously with gurparsaad fo naam, seva and bandagi.   That is why Dassan Dass ji says keep doing the prayer "i am full of five thieves and desires, please forgive me."   By doing so you are making new habits and destroying old mental habits.
 
You asked why those old thoughts keep coming in, because of habit.  Its good to understand how the mind works - it is addictive.  Whatever thought pattern we get into, it keeps on throwing those thoughts back at us.  You have thought negatively for along time, so now you are tryig to break out of it, but those habits keep those thoughts coming back.  It takes about 21 days to break old thought patterns/old habits.  So for 21 days you are going to have to battle with them as hard as you can.  Which means everytime the old thoughts come back, you will find yourself going down that train of thoughts and being tossed into an emotion of sadness/or despair at the end of the line.   So what do you do next time, as soon as you notice your mind has gone down that old train of thoughts, you step back and became aware of those thoughts.  Name them, eg thoughts of X.  Then put it into a bubble, and blow the bubble away.  Then do your prayer "I am fulll of 5 thieves and desires, please forgive me."   Then start your Satnaam Satnaam simran.
 
Later on you find yourself down the train of negative thoughts again, and you repeat the cycle to get out of it, put them in abubble, and start your simran.   
 
To start with, depending on how deep those habits are, you may try and limit yourself to only 10 minutes a day of negative thinking.   Infact, if you sit down you can work out how much of your day you spend in different types of thoughts.  Now your aim is to spend your day in throughts of singing Gods praises (kirtan) and doing satnaam simran and good deeds.  Good deeds for others is the best way to stop negative thoughts about yourself.  If you want to be happy, make someone else smile, will make you smile.  
 
Its a struggle, its hard, I have been there, some days its harder than others, but we have Guru with us and the struggle is the journey, so is an important part of our bandagi process.  Dassan Dass ji says that Bandagi is nothing but waging war on maya.
 
So you can do it, will do, Guru ji is with you.
 

IF you like, you may like to do a meditation course we ran at home , it will help you thru alot of your insecurities and stuff and is an easy way to become more positive.  Then build up to more simran and 1am for some time in the future.  We also leanred yoga and reiki, we go to the gym regularly, running is a great way to free the mind, feel good and do simran afterwards.   We had to learn about good diet, changed our ways and it has taken the last 8 years to do so, but its only because we were not content to stay down, depressed, low energy, slave of maya and bad habits and negative thinking.
 
So same for you when you truly get sick of feeling how you are feeling, then pray for strength, take courage, make the necessary changes, step by step, day by day, thought by thought, start fighting thru the jungle of the mind.
 
We are here to hold your hand every step of the way.
 
Some days you will feel like giving up, somedays you will be worse than before, but keep going, never give up, there is Divine Light at the end of this journey, there is Pure divine Love, there is Puran Brahm Gian - the perfect divine wisdom waiting for you.
 
Dust of your feet
Harjit

fulfiling your self-actualisation needs

COMMENT:

superpowers are an impediment for finding the truth, but so can be learning any skill, an impediment can be the desire for health, or even the desire of enlightenement, and if a job is boring it can seem like that because you are not fufiling your soul porpouse, the reason you are here, your job is not fufiling your self-actualisation needs.

REPLY:

SatNaam,
 
yes you are right, any desire can be an impediment, that is why it is so important to keep saying "thy will be done, not mine", to realise the God is creator and doer of everything and we are running under his control.  To accept that we are where we are as per what we have sown previously.  We asked our guru about self-actualisation needs, he said that self-actualistion was the peak of ego.   Self-realisation is in the opposite direction.  When we are stuck in a boring job, we have to first bring the mind into peace and accept we are here because as per our karma this is what we have sown and hence are reaping.  To then humbly pray to accept where we are, to still do a good job as a servant of God, that this job is in the service of God.  As Sai Baba said, "dont do what you like like what you do."  And as ou own guru says as well, that trust in God, be a servant wherever He places you, and when te time comes He will move you on.    Its all about trusting in God doing the right thing for us, thats the only way out of desires and frustrations and to realise the true purpose of the soul - to self-realise and to become an instrument for God's Will in the world.
 
Thanks
Harjit   

Fwd: Psychic question

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From: Harjit <satsatsat@gmail.com>
Date: 6 May 2010 14:03
Subject: Re: Psychic question
To: Kundaliniyoga@yahoogroups.com, jericasummers@ymail.com

QN: 

Re: Psychic question
Posted by: "Jerica Summers" jericasummers@ymail.com   jericasummers@ymail.com
Wed May 5, 2010 6:15 pm (PDT)

In books about enlightenment, the superpowers are always thought of as being just another skill like dancing, painting, etc. The ability dies when we die. So I thought that practice would make superpowers better since they're a skill and not enlightenment. I wanted to be in an occupation that I was interested in. My current job is boring beyong words.

REPLY:

SatNaam Jerica,

 

the key for you is not trying to develop psychic abilities (=YOUR WANT=DESIRE), the key is accept where you are in life at the moment (=GODS WANT=GODS WILL).

 

When you learn the lesson about yourself from your current job, you will progress spiritually.

 

Which part of you is getting bored?  The ego.

 

When you have desires for supernatural powers or any worldy wants, where do they lead you?  Into Maya. 

 

What stops you realising God/Soul within yourself?  The ego, chasing desires, keeping you trapped in Maya.

 

How do you get out of ego and desires?  Become nothing.

 

What does that mean practically?  Accept your job is where you are supposed to be right now, so become a slave of God, see your job as

service to God/your higher self.  An excercise in ridding yourself of ego.   Everytime the thoughts come from your ego, "this job is boring beyond words"

keep praying, "Thy will be done, NOT MINE."

 

When your ego no longer bothers you, you will be at peace, then al lthese powers will come, but they are also a distraction from realising the Truth - the Creator of these powers.  Ask your ego , "why are you going after supernatural powers, when you could be going after the Creator of them?"  Why settle for second best?

 

The real job is to remember God's Name - Sat Naam , Sat Naam, Sat Naam - the Truth, the Truth, the Truth.

And all day long be nothing, a servant, an attitude of giving, giving, giving to one and all - wether at home, work or out and about - just doing truthful deeds.

And most all all staying desire-free, staying at the feet of the Creator - Sat Naam Karta Purakh.

 

And what will happen with your job?  Watch and wait, when you trsut in God, unbelievable and amazing things happen - but you have to patient, because everything happens

according to HIS WILL, at the perfect time for us.  so pray to be an instrument for His will in this world, rather than getting frsutrated that your will is not coming to fruition.

 

We went through similar things, God-Guru Bless You with the Truth.

 

Dust of your feet

Harjit

 

 

Mool Manter describes your own Highest Truth Consciousness

SatNaam Ji

Dandauth Bandhna ji

 

QN: Someone told me to do mool manter, but you guys do "Satnaam Satnaam"?

 

In the Alcoholic Anonymous Big Book, they say the first thing an alcoholic has to do to recover is to accept that by his own power he has not been able to get free of his addiction.  So he needs to accept their is a higher power who can free him through spiritual expereince.  But alot of people have issues with calling the higher power God, because the priests have put them off religion.   So in the AA book they say you can think of the Higher Power as a bunch f higher qualities that you aspire to, eg kindess, compassion, love, equality.    This is exactly what Guru Nanak Dev Ji has done by giving us Mool Manter.  Dhan Guru Nanak Dev ji refocused people's attention to their own highest Truth Consciousness - the description of their own soul as being God.  Rather than what the priests were preching at that time about stone idols, or holy rocks, or lesser gods and supernatural beings (devi-devtas).  Baba ji also said we are on a journey through consciousness.  We start in lower consciousness (5 thieves, desires, etc), we do truthful deeds and move up into good consciousness, but when we merge into our own soul - we become Truth Conscious.  And that Jesus Guru Nanak, Mohammed and others were all Truth Conscious Beings.

 

So Mool Manter is a good place to start doing simran (Dassan Dass ji advised us to get our kids to do this every day), it describes Truth Consciousness, its describes your own immacualte soul, it is a description of Truth Consciousness (SATNAAM) that we aspire to -
 
Ik onkar satnaam - One God whose name is "Truth",
the Creator being, fearless, without hate, unborn, undying, self-created,
realised by the Gurus Eternal Blessings.
 
When you do Mool Manter you stop focusing on your own lower consciousness thoughts and instead are reminding yourself of your own soul's identifty - that you too are also from the one God,  your soul is the Truth (it  is permanent), it is the creative force within you (keeps you breathing, reproducing, heart pumping),
you are fearless and hate free (i.e. full of love for one and all), it never is born nor does it die and you self-realise with the Gurus Eternal Blessings.  
 
Start with mool manter but then come onto Satnaam Satnaam, but its for the Guru to give you the Naam and the blessings and the instructions.  Otherwise theres millions of people out there all ready to tell you something or the other about what to do - but ask them , have they realised the Truth? If not, why are they advising anyone else when they havent finished their own journey yet - blind leading the blind.

 

Here is an eternally Blessed article by Dassan Dass ji about Mool Manter:

http://www.satnaam.info/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=178&Itemid=24

 

 

Dust of your feet

Harjit

Cleaning Up

SatNaam Ji,
Dandauth Bandhna,

 

just sharing - may help others:

 

 

QN: ...am feeling lots of guilt and fear and sleepless nights due to seeing all the past bad deeds I have committed...

 

REPLY:

 
you are going through a very important stage which Dassan Dass ji calls cleaning up your past.  It can take days, months or even years depending on how much stuff there is and how deep seated it is.
 
We sent an article recently which may help you - http://hslakhan.blogspot.com/2010/04/have-you-swallowed-and-digested-some.html  .  There's a link on there to Dassan Dass ji's article, as well as to the Big Book from alcoholics Anonymous - which also give people a way to deal with their past issues, which is very similar to what Dassan Dass/Baba ji say as well.
 
It is very simple ji, we are a pure soul, but we absorbed ourself in the thick scum of maya due to our bad thoughts, bad deeds and negative emotions like guilt, fear, jealousy, slander and so on.  We have spent the whole of this lifetime so far blackening ourself in this way, not to count how many lifetimes in the past we have done the same.  But most people are not bothered by it, they never look within, too busy rushing aroundin maya chasing their desires.  So if you are able to look within, then as painful as it is, it is actually the Grace of God-Guru upon you that allows you to do this.  To really be honest with yourself as to what you are, what you have done and what you then need to do to clean up.
 
Baba ji says we have to become naked on this path.  That means we have to be the same on the inside as on the outside.  That we can no longer hide anything under the dark cover of ego, we must confess it.  We must admit our mistakes, we must confess it to God-Guru, or even better confess it in the sangat (as you will see that people send confessions on the satnaam group ).   This is really humbling, to admit in front of everyone all of our misdeeds.  No one judges us.  But our ego gets deflated, it stops trying to look good on the outside whilst we know what we really are on the inside.   And anyway, who are we fooling by keeping secrets?  They only burden us as you are currently feeling.  Our past misdeeds only weigh us down and dont let us go forward.  Ego doesnt want us to tell anyone or confess it, so we are trapped.    So Baba ji has given us the beautiful way out, to confess our misdeeds to God and then even better, to completely deflate ego, confess in the sangat.
 
By confessing we release the weight.  God knows our innermost secrets anyway, but HE DOESNT INTERFERE.  But when we confess it, apologise and try and to make ammends (say sorry to the ones we have hurt, touch their feet, reapy them etc) then we can move on.  When we ask for forgivness we are forgiven right away, God is happy that we have finally realised HE IS SITTING WITHIN US ALL THE TIME and we have stopped fooling around, pretending he wasnt there. 
 
After accepting we have done wrong, confessing it, askinginf for forgiveness and trying to make ammends as best as we can, we then need to sit and do satnaam simran - to now focus on God-Guru ji's beautiful feet, to focus on the lovelight of our own soul, to become a flower in the sunshine of our mind.   By doing so we take our mind off the misdeeds (where your mind is currently stuck) and we start remembering (simran) our true identity - our soul - God within us.
 
e man tu jyot saroop ha apanaaa mool pehchaan
o my mind you are the essence of light, recognise your source...guru amar das ji.
 
 
And each time you remember Gods Name, Satnaam, countless millions of sins/misdeeds/bad thoughts are wiped clean.   The Naam the Guru gives us is that powerful that i transformed Sajjan tug the murderer into a Sant.
 
balharee gur apanaay deoharee sad var
jin manas te devtay keeo karat na lagee var
i am a sacrifice to my guru, a hundred times a day
for he transforms humans into angels in no time at all....guru nanak dev ji.
 
 
And the Gurbani tells us to go into the sangat of the Guru and sing Gods praises
sant janaa mil har jas gaaio
kot janam ke dukh gavaaio
...meet the Sant and sing God's praises
countless lifetimes suffering is erased.
 
We are all sinners, we have all fallen from Grace that is why we are sitting in maya, in the darkness of our mind and sins/mistakes.
But the Guru is kind and shows us how to clean up
 
Waho waho sachay ma teree tek
hau papee tu nirmal ek
wondrous wondrous True One, I seek your shelter
for I am a sinner
and you are the Perfect One....Guru Nanak Dev Ji.
 
Baba ji said to us, to everyday confess our sins, start by saying "I am a sinner because ...."
 
And Dassan Dass ji asked us to keep doing this ardas all day long, every five minutes
 
"I am full of anger, greed, lust, attachment, greed , pride and desires,
please forgive me."
 
When we are forgiven by God we are given a clean state , lke everyday the sun comes out and holds no grudges against us
for what we did the day before.  Every morning we wake up, put our yesterdays behind us, and try to be a beautiful flower in the sunshine.  Everyday we get another chance of being alive and doing truthful deeds and remembering the naam of Truth - SatNaam.

God doesnt hold grudes against us, only our own mind wants to keep punishing us for its past mistakes.  God-Guru forgives, but our mind thinks we need to be suffering , to be in pain of fear and guilt, to show we are repenting.  That's a trick of the mind.  Once you are forgiven, let it go, accept everything that happened in the past had to happen that way - was the HUKAM.  Mistakes were made, we are sorry, we learn from them, we wont make those mistakes again, we move on  - but we DONT HOLD ONTO FEAR AND GUILT AND SELF SUFFERING as that is the road to destruction.   Its only negative ego that makes you thnik you need to suffer for longer, its only positvie ego that previously made you think whatever you did was justified and you were right.  Both ways you are under the control of ego.  Confessing makes us humble, that deflates the ego.
 
 
There is however always some karma to repay as we have generated so much, so that is why everyday we need to be doing at least 2.5hrs of simran (build up to it) and lots of truthful deeds.   We need to be doing ardas for forgiveness every day and having an inner shower inthe divine sunshine to clean up.  Otherwise the karmic filth just keeps on accumulating.  And depending on how bad our past karma is dpends on what we get now - mental sickness, physical sickness, emotional turmoil, family problems, financial issues and so on , is all due to past karma, which all has to be repaid.  But with the Eternal Blessings of Naam, with the kindness of Satguru our karma is reduced, our mindis freed and we even see our dukh (suffering) as suck (peace) beacuase in our dukh we remember God as ego deflates.
 
So its all good, its all a process of spiritual cleansing you are going through, god is not punishing you, your own negative ego is punishing you - you are doing it to yourself.  You can free yoursefl by forgiving yourself as well and giving yourself permission to let go of the past misdeeds you did.
 
Hope that anwers your questiosn, keep emailing us, if you want to release your past deeds and confess , you are more than welcome to send us private email or even better send to the sangat satnaam group, it will help you to be free.  We can help you work through it, hold your hand and pray for you, just as Baba ji has done for us.
 
Dust of your feet
Harjit

struggling with amrtivela simran

Just sharing - may help others.

 

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Satnaam ji,
 
Dandauth Bandhna ji
 
please forgive us, we dont know anything, except we can relate to your questions about finding a comfortable posture,
about feeling tired and sleepy, about wanting to use other Names for simran and so on.   All we can say ji is that
we have learned that even in your failed attempts you are still being taught.  You are learning HOW NOT TO DO SIMRAN.
God keeps the curtain of ego closed until we are ready and we are worthy - PURE only comes to PURE.  Baba ji said that
Nanak only came to Nand Singh when Nand Singh became as pure as Nanak.  And also Baba ji wrote just reciting "SatNaam"
is not enough, we HAVE TO serve SatNAAM KartaPurakh in the Creation all day and night.   Also ask yourself why you are
trying so hard to have spiritual expereinces?   We had to ask ourself this as well when we couldnt get through the curtain of ego?
 
Please reply why are you trying to have spiritual experiences?  Why is your experience of real life not enough?
 
Baba ji told us to forget about trying to see God in other realms, because it was more important to conquor my five thieves in the 24 hours of the day.  Most important was to conquor ego.  Because in his sangat many saw all the realms of God and even God himself, but when the tests came they failed, because they hadn't conquored their ego.
 
Baba ji told us he says to God "why do I need to go to other realms to see you, when you are all-pervading al around me , in every heart?"
 
Are you trying for spiritual expereinces to justify your spiritual path?  Like we work and expect to get paid or a promotion?
Are you failing to see god in every heart you meet each day?
Are you fighting with 5 thieves during the day?  Confessing them and asking for forgivness and really finding how deeply rooted your daily actions are in maya?
Are you suffering from "seva thoree mangan bohtha - little seva but asking lots?"
 
Have you every fallen in love?  Been in love?
Baba ji is in love with God.
How would you remember the name of your lover when you are in love?
What would surrender for the love of your beloved?
Would money, job, family, car, house etc etc matter if you were in such a love?
 
Have alook inside, how much have you given up worldy wants and attachments?
 
Guru Arjun Dev ji sacrificed EVERYTHING, how does it it make you feel just to imagine sacrificing everything.
 
Look within, how much have you given up?
 
How much have you fallen in love?
 
Or is doing simran just an escape from reality of your daily existance?
 
We have had to face all these questions ourself as well.
 
God bless you .
 
Harjit

I am feeling negative

QN: I am feeling negative, not motivated by the charity projects I used to love and didn't feel much from

attending the sangat - was an anti-climax.  Plus the image of in my meditation is bewildering me -

is it a trick of the mind or real, or what does it mean.

 

REPLY:

 
Its difficult - dealing with the mind is the most difficult. Everyone wants peace of mind, but not everyone wants to pay
the price.   What's the price, surrendering our wants and just doing what God wants.  It's as simple (and as hard) as that.
 
Its a journey.  See your mind as wild horse which has been running all over the place for all of our life.  Now you
are perhaps not liking where it has lead to, hence are becoming aware of its wild nature (negative thoughts, false hopes,
sadness, sorrow, even exictement of chasing desires, living the dream etc).     That's a start, a great start, to
be able to look within and put into words how you really feel - negative , bewildered etc. 
 
Noticing/observing what your mind is doing is a great first step, doing that and not reacting by not putting a judgement on it is the first step in trying to break the wild horse in.
 
Forget about the vision you had in meditation.  Its all just tricks of the mind, it maybe true, it may not, either way it doesnt help
you get to peace of mind as you have said it is bewildering you.  Better to say to the mind, yes that's a very nice image, thankyou, I let it go, and come back to remembering God's name in your mind.    Mind plays all kinds of tricks, all you ahve to learn is to bring it bak to its centre, back to peace.
 
Always listen to your feelings, we used to run around alot doing things for Gurdwara etc.  But in the end its just a story for you to meet people and have interactions and repay/receive what karma you have with them. When the karam finishes then your motivation for those things finish as well.  Maybe its time to move on for you, let others carry on, but you personally have done enough of that seva, need to move onto breaking in the wild horse now?   Dassan Dass ji always tells us that we now need to do SatNaam Simran, that is the highest Seva  - seva of God Himself.  But still do good deeds, have an atitude of giving in everything you do - wether at work, home, friends, family circles etc. 
 
Even coming into simran or sangat, dont come with expectation, then there is no anti-climax.  Come only with an atittude of a beggar and a a giver, come and serve, come and share some food, come and dust the shoes, come with no expectation, sit at Gods feet and if HE gives you something, then Thankyou, and if HE doesnt, then thankyou as HE knows we were not ready for it yet.  But either way we are ahhpy with what HE wants for us, not demanding what I WANT.   Then the mind stays in peace, when the mind is pure, then PURE can come to it. 
 
So its a process, it takes time to change habits and our maya way of thinking, to change our maya lifestyle and come into a spiritual lifestyle.  So keep doing ardas like a beggar at God's door,
 
jachak jan mangay ek daan
kar kirpa devo har naam
...this beggar begs for one gift
be merciful and give us your Naam.

..full shabad is here, its got everything in it.  Personally I do this ardas everyday, its got everything in it.
Remember that God keep Bhagti in His own hand and gives it to whoever HE wants to.
So if we feel we are drifting far from HIM, then we can only beg Him to give us this gift and not to forget about us.
So that is why its so important to start doing ardas for the gift of naam, seva and bhagti.
 
http://www.sikhitothemax.com/page.asp?ShabadID=1043
 
 
Also, we have put a meditation course online, you can download it and go through it in a nice quite space.  We
ran it for people at our home a couple of years ago and its very peaceful.  There are some talks before and after the
meditation, as well if you want.  Once you learn to relax , you will find it easier to progress into doing Simran and

start enjoying coming to Sangat as well and to ask for blessings from Dassan Dass ji.
 
Let us know how it goes, and God bless you on the next chapter of your spiritual life.
 
Feel free to ask/share anything else.
 
Dust of your feet
 
Harjit