Sat Naam Ji
Dandauth Bandhna Ji,
Dear Sat Sangat Ji,
may you all become Sant Hirdhas (heart of Saint) and keep us as the dust under your feet.
Sat Naam Sat Guru Baba ji, Dassan Dass Ji and NaamJeevan Ji are so kind. We are so blessed to be in their holy presence.
We are not worthy of this Sat Sangat that Sat Naam Ji has given us. We are full of ego and anger and attachment.
We went a little back into our worldly ways on Saturday, then in sunday after doing Simran we had worldy dreams, just of
things that were mentioned in the day. On Sunday we ended up getting frustrated with our daughter and took a long walk
to cool off. We realised we are trying to control again. We took her to the park got frustrated and let her walk home, then went back to look for her
(she was already home unknown to us!!) then started feeling "fear of losing her". Realised we are full of moh (attachment) and control still.
Then gave it up to God. Looked inside and looked at why we have hopes for them to exercise , to study more and so on? It all comes
down to fear of them having bad health, being overwieght, not doing as well at school as they could and so on. The fears are all mine,
but comes as overbearing and controlling on the children. We did our ardas to kindest of the kind SatGuru Baba ji and asked for forgivness.
To replace our "fear of losing" (moh) with full faith, love and devotion in Baba ji's lotus feet. Full faith that He is taking care of everything.
Baba ji did say to us once, "do your bhagati and god will take care of your kids," but we forget that!!!
We spent more of yesterday letting things be and accepting everyone as they are. Singing on our vaja and feeling a lot better.
We got up with Baba ji's blessings when He woke us up and after doing simran lay back and whilst doing simran drifted away.
Baba Ji is so kind to this fool trapped in the 5 thieves, we found ourself sitting in a big airport lounge kind of area.
Other people were there rushing around ,eating, moving, others were trying to sleep. We found ourself exactly the same as we were in reality i.e.
lying back in our meditation chair coverered with our shawl. Everytime we managed to ignore the distrations and focus on "Sat Naam Sat Naam"
in our Hirdha (heart chakra) on Baba Ji's lotus feet, we felt aburst of Amrit, a surge of love.
Our cousin was sitting next to us, we remembered he has severe back and shoulder pain and sent him some reiki. Another old friend and his wife were
there and we touched their feet in our mind. Then a pack of dogs wre fighting (5 thieves) and one of them , like a large angry wolf pressed his wet black nose against me,
but we were not bothered and carried on taking our focus back to Sat Naam.
What we have learnt from these dreams over the last few weeks about amrit vela is
1) goto sleep early enough
2) do ardas humble and sincerely at Baba Ji and Dassan Dass Ji;s lotus feet, really truly deeply feel they are standing infront of you. That you
are bhai Lehna ji infront of Guru Nanak Dev ji - have that much love and devotion and faith.
3) wake up , do dandauth again to SatGuru ji, do 5 minutes stretching, do some chanting eg mool mantr + satnaam to focus the mind in the third eye.
Do the spiritual cleanisin i..e scan through the deeds we have done under the influence of the 5 thieves and ask for forgivness.
Do "haumai nahee thohee thoo - no ego only you" and keep washing baba ji-dassan dass ji's feet.
Wash the feet of all ten Gurus and all sants and all the satsangat.
Wash the feet of your family, friends and foes.
Do the "band band kat aganee meh saray ..joint by joint cut the body and throw it into the fire" meditation that Dassan Dass Ji taught us.
Keep cutting the body and throwing into a fire infront of you. This burns MOH to the body.
Then burn attachments to family, possessions & reputation - the three things that Baba ji said are the hardest break from for most people.
Also helps to keep surrendering everything to baba ji in our mind - mind is yours baba ji, body is your baba ji, wealth is your baba ji. May our body burn in the fire, may our attachments to our family burn in the fire, may our attachments to our wealth and possessions burn in the fire, may our attachment to our reputation burn in the fire.
Listen to some kirtan to feel the emotional connection.
4) today we listened to a guided meditation we recorded a while back (will upload for others) and it really helped to release all physical and mental tension we were still carrying over from the day before ..feeling bad about controlling the kids etc.
5) do ardas again to baba ji to bless us with samadhi and love of the lotus feet - start doing silent simran in the heart imaging washing baba ji's lotus feet, lie back and drift away.
Baba ji is so kind to us. All we know is that whatever we are doing all day really effects our amritvela. so all day long keep doing the ardas Dassan Dass ji has given us, keep doing satnaam with love in our heart, keep serving others, keep away from the 5 thieves.
As we clean up inside on a daily basis, steps 3 and 4 become shorter and shorter, step 5 becomes longer and longer.
This is really working for us now.
dust of your feet
Harjit
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