Tears from your heart wash your sins

From baba ji maharaj, Oct 2004.

Just cry from your heart for God, all your  impurities are running, he himself is colouring you with his love. Invite him into your house, your heart, o Lord finish my mind, may I only think only of you, I sell my mind to you, may I only do your seva, of poor, injured, hurt. Wherever you take me I will go, whatever you want me to do I will do.  How to want me to dance I will dance, but never let out of the shelter of your Holy feet.  Sat sat sat sada sada sat. Your naam is the true medicine. Stay in peace.

We have to break the illusion of ego.    How? Well ego thinks it's in control of this life.  My life and I do what I choose.   Baba ji said, do you control your Hunger or your thirst or your breaths or your heartbeat?    All your involuntary functions, are controlled by god.  Even he is feeding us breath  like a mother putting the nipple in the baby's mouth.  And each breath is counted.   When we say I have a choice even that is illusion.   Only his hukam prevails,  whatever we thought we chose was going to play that way.   So better to take the illusion out of our thinking.  Always put God first,  say please you come and make me go where you want and do what you want.   Even in bhagti if we say it is hard, it's because ego is saying I am doing bhagti.   So instead say, please you come and do your own bhagti,  aapay aap. Then your bhagti will accelerate.   Bhagti  isn't for selfish reasons, it's for God's glory, say, make me your glory, make me your tool to serve you, to see only you in others, that I may become one word.. Sat sat sat.   May I only ask  for bandagi and nothing else. Aapay aap. O mind you are from the light  realise it, o mind always sing praises. O heart cherish the diamond of naam.  Do true bhagti  and true deeds from your heart and he, truth, will come and reside in your hirdha and make it shine brighter than all the suns.   All the guru's and saints are in God's shelter, parbrahm Sarnaee, give us your shelter too . You have given us everything in Naam, what else can I ever ask for.    Breathe in Satnaam, give everything to God,  all my pains and pleasures are yours, body, wealth and mind are yours, everything I have is yours o great giver.    Come into all my (chakras) , sarovars, and into every limb and every cell.  May no one know my name, you are master and I am your slave.