I wish

Sat naam sat guru
Dassan dass baba ji
Pritam anand and mata ji,

I wish I didn't have to worry
about anything,
I wish I trusted you fully
my king of kings,
I wish I could just focus, with love,
only upon your lotus feet,
I wish my mind would just melt
and I could dive in deep.

I wish I could surrender everything,
Let go of my thieves, give up and give in,
I wish I could see you again,
Just one more time
My dearest friend,
I wish I hadn't turned my back on You
I was young,
I was dumb
I was a complete and utter fool.

I wish I could just live a life of love,
And smile and be kind and hug,
I wish I could hold onto your naam
Day and night live in your loving arms,
I wish I was as pure as a flowing stream,
I wish I was with you awake and in my dreams.

I wish I could just do as you say,
My satguru ji I am a fool and I pray:
I accept you have been so kind
And I was and still am crazy and blind,
I know in the end nothing goes with me,
But somehow fear of survival has overcome me,
When I was younger I was happy and free,
Now I am weighed down with family responsibility,
Thinking I have to be the breadwinner
But chasing the thieves has made me a sinner.

Satnaam satguru dassan dass baba ji
There is nothing good about me,

You have been too kind ,
To this mind that is blind,
I dont know if I will ever make it
in this lifetime,
But i am yours and you be mine,
Please keep giving me strength
To overcome all my weakness.

The older I get
The more I regret
Every moment that I forget
You, my Guru,
For life gets shorter everyday,
Please save me,
By your mercy
Day and night I pray,
For a glimpse of you
Again, my friend
Satnaam satguru
To be forgiven and loved
And held and hugged
In your love, your light
Your radiant glory shining bright,
Your presence in me
Shining brighter than the sun
Your grace, your gift
When you made us one
And the same
Merged into your name
Sat naam
Sat naam
Sat naam
Sat naam

I wish I could dive
into your holy lotus feet my friend,
So deep, complete and never
Come out again,
But until then
I look up at the moon
And wish I will go back home soon.

Sat naam
Sat naam
Sat naam
Sat naam.