SATNAAM
Preeto: Satnaam ji, remember to do your simran!
R Penji: :(
that we do very rare
Preeto: you're on holiday now so what's the problem?
R Penji: laziness and stubborn stupid mind
Preeto: but you're not lazy when it comes to doing other work, nor are you stupid when it comes to studying, so why the problem when it comes to simran?
R Penji: no words :(
Preeto: that's what we want you to think about
what is blocking you?
really blocking you inside
rather than just saying lazy and stupid
what is the real reason
R Penji: ji
we dont know the reason
Preeto: you dont feel any thirst for it
R Penji: ji we dont feel thirst
to be true
Preeto: that's right
because if we are thirsty we get a drink right away
but if we are already full, then we dont eat anything even from a full plate of food infront of us
so you must be full of something
R Penji: kaam, krodh, lobh, moh, ahankaar
we full of bad deeds
Preeto: and go behind them, why are you full of them? Think about your desires,
ask yourself what do you want in life?
R Penji: dont know what we want
Preeto: yes you do
you have very strong and determined wants
R Penji: ya they are many but not a particular
Preeto: your biggest want is get out of the life you are in
so studying is a way out
R Penji: ya thats true
Preeto: your next biggest want is not to upset your parents or your brother - so FEAR runs you as well
R Penji: but we have one more strong desire which is getting more strong as time passes
we found that we cant sit and do simran
like we get irritation sometimes when we force ourself to do simran
becoz it dont want to
Preeto: that's right
you dont enjoy doing simran anymore
R Penji: if we trying and trying failing and failing to concentrate
Preeto: that's why you dont have any enthusiasm to do it
R Penji: yes veer ji
aap ji know what
guru ji stopped talking to us
becoz we dont do simran
from 2 months
they havent talked to us
Preeto: really its the other way around
you have stopped talking to the guru
R Penji: they told us dont talk until and unless you do a lot of simran
Preeto: that's the outer guru
we are talking about the inner guru
you have stopped talking to your own innner guru, pita ji, in your heart
R Penji: but outer guru ji is upset with us
how to talk to inner guru ji
Preeto: there is only one guru
same guru inside you is outside in Dassan Dass ji
so he is telling you to talk to him inside you, not the outside
R Penji: ji
Preeto: everyday we stand infront of guru ji's picture
and we do ardas with joined hands
and we say satguru ji we want to know you on the inside
please forgive us for all our mistakes,
please dont forget about us - mohi na visaro je ma junn tera
without you satguru ji, we just fade away and die
we dont want to go back into maya
but we dont know how to come back
please forgive us
for we are full of mistakes, full of five thieves, chase after desires, ungrateful great offender of our guru and it weighs on our head
please bless us with naam, seva and bandagi
please you come and do your own simran, because if "I" do it "I" cant concentrate
please you come into this heart guru ji, and come into all the chakras and come into our rom-rom
please keep us as the lowest
keep us washing everyones feet
R Penji: you know what veer ji, I have no patience
Preeto: yes, because mind is running all over the place
R Penji: if we sit silently our mind says get up its enough now
like frustration
Preeto: yes
so you have to accept you are at rock bottom (and we have hit rock bottom so many times!)
and start again
one step at a time
one ardas at a time
one day at a time
R Penji: means one ardas?
Preeto: means do ardas now
from your heart
talk to satnaam satguru inside
accept your mistakes
ask for forgiveness, naam, seva and bandagi
that all
mohi na visaro ji ma junn tera – please don't forget about me, I am your slave.
R Penji: ji veer ji
aap ji know what sometimes we feel like crying becoz we cant do simran with concentration
Preeto: yes, soul cries when mind doesnt listen and makes it into a prisoner
Preeto: just learn to relax
doesnt matter if you cant get up early, or cant sit for very long, just do ardas and relax and do as much simran as you can. Even if that is only 5 minutes to start with, that's good first step, then build up every day. It will start to make you feel positive about yourself. Then when you feel good about yourself, you will be able to get into a good routine. Just keep talking to Sat Naam Sat Guru ji inside your heart all day
long, otherwise you are the one who has forgotten your guru.
Remember that your Guru never forgets you.
R Penji: ya true
Preeto: guru has promised God to ferry across your soul.
Only we break our promises to our Guru.
R Penji: ji
ya true :(
Preeto: so you cant drown in maya
because guru inside wont let you
but you can sink in maya and suffer in Maya until you pray for help and ask to get out of it
R Penji: ji veer ji
Preeto: thats the blessing of satguru to us
he wont let us drown
but we will go up and down until we put into practise what they have asked us to do.
We need to get a good daily discipline and give up desires and that only happens when we get fed up with maya
R Penji: ji veer ji
Preeto: but you are not fed up yet
when you are young you have many things to chase and do
so the path is longer
R Penji: ya
Preeto: it has to come from inside you when you really want to surrender to naam and give up the maya chase
might be in another 10 yrs
might be when you are old and grey
might be tomorrow
R Penji: ya
Preeto: but no one else can make you surrender
guru can open the inner door
but you have to walk through it
when you choose to do that is when you turn your back to maya's door
see the thing your mind doesnt understand is
that everything you are fighting to achieve in the world
only drains and exhausts you – look how your health deteriorated during the last year of intensive studying.
R Penji: ya
Preeto: but still you carry on fighting, hoping and wishing
because that is what everyone else around you is doing
and fear of failing wont let you rest
R Penji: ya true!
but what the mind doesn't understand
is that if you surrender to Sat Naam Sat Guru, He takes care of everything.
You still study and do exams and get a job and have a family
but without having to fight inside
without having to fear
and your whole life goes smoothly
it is much easier way when you let Him look after you
but that requires Trust in your guru
but no one around you is following this inner path of trust and devotion , so you don't follow it either no matter how much wisdom and blessings you have got from SatGuru ji.
R Penji: ya we are lacking in trust
Preeto: baba ji said once to us "the one who runs you, I run him"
dont think satguru's words are nothing
even God does what his Sat Guru humbly asks
R Penji: ji veer ji
Preeto: and you have that power and grace available to you
you have diamonds but chase after coal
this is how you have to persuade your own mind
the battle is inside you
to throw out maya, and say my satguru is higher
even if i am poor, a failure and useless, even then I dont want anything from maya, just dust of my Guru's feet
that is how you beat maya inside
and do you see anyone in the sangat who is poor and out on the street or a failure?
R Penji: no
Preeto: because satnaam just wants to see your love
and he takes care of you
he is your real parent
he is the dad inside your dad
the mum inside your mum
the guru inside your guru
the god inside you
R Penji: ji
Preeto: gobind bhau bhaga ka bhukka
god is hungry for your love
and baba ji says
what does it cost you to love?
not a penny
to love is free
R Penji: but how that loves comes?
Preeto: in service to others without expecting anything in return,
love others
water plants with love
help poor with love
play with kids with love
cook for others with love
forget about yourself
R Penji: why dont we feel do much attraction love towards guru god that we feel when we are in love or attraction with a boy or a girl
Preeto: because that is your age and moh is strong and kaam as well and you have to live out your karma, but that that "love" isn't really love, because it is selfish
because you WANT the other for your own happiness
R Penji: true!
Preeto: this love is harder to earn, so is called true love, Divine Love, - PREM
you have to live for others with no selfishness
and then your heart blooms one day
God bless you
danduth bandhna ji
R Penji: thankyou veer ji
dandauth bandhna ji
now we will bring copy and pen and will write this divine wisdom on a copy so that we dont forget :)
Sat Naam
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