Ik onkar SAT naam SAT gurparsaad.
Dhan Dhan SAT ParBrahm SAT Guru SAT Sangat.
Dhan Dhan All those who live in SAT Santokh.
SAT SAT SAT Tera Naam.
SAT SAT SAT Teri Bani.
Dandauth Bandhna Ji to you all.
We all face times when our faith is strongly shaken and at those times we can fall back down with a massive crash into lower consciousness.
After struggling for years to accumulate some Bhagti into our spiritual account, we can lose it in an instant. Like to make a haystack takes alot of effort, to burn it down takes one match. In an instant we can lose all that spiritual labouring, lose all our faith, lose all our peace of mind, lose all the love and compassion in our heart. And just fill with emptiness, darkness, slandering, complaints, hatred, mental turmoil, stubborness, hurt and pain, and vow never to go near Sants or religion or whatever hurt us again.
We have lost our Bhagti so many times over last 20 years. But, now we have vowed inside ourself, that no matter what happens around us,
no matter if we lose our family, lose our health, lose our wealth, even lose our religion, even lose this sangat or lose our Sant, we can't lose our Bhagti.
We cant lose our peace of mind, we cant lose our inner balance, we cant lose Truth, Love and Compassion. We cant go back into darkness,
sorrow, broken hearted feelings, chasing wordly desires and ended up in mental turmoil.
We remember a few years ago we had a dream with Baba ji's blessings. We were riding a cycle up a mountain and if that wasn't hard enough,
we were also kicking a ball up as we went. When the ball rolled back down, we stopped it and kicked it further up and cycled to catch up.
We got quite high up the mountain, because when we looked back, the houses looked like ants. But, then right infront of us was a huge
bodyguard type of guy blocking the path. As the ball reached his feet, he swung his leg and kicked the ball over our head and all the way down the mountain.
We didn't get angry. Just turned the bike around, and easily cycled down. But, we returned kicking the ball up and iding at the same time.
This time when we approached the huge bodyguard, we kicked the ball forward toward him and looked him in the eye. We said, "It doesn't matter
how many times he kicks the ball down, we will just keep going down to get it and return."
He smiled and stepped to the side and let us pass.
That ball is our Bhagti, the mountain is our inner mountain of consciousness. Riding uphill is how hard we are working to earn the divine wisdom,
to give mind, body and wealth - everything to the Guru. And going back downhill to lower consciousness is SO EASY, coming back up again is
very hard work.
On our spiritual journey we have lost our bhagti so many times, years have gone by before we managed to ride our way up again, only to lose it again
for another few years. Reason being we never realised how precious Bhagti was, and ho wimportant it was to cherish it and hold onto it NO MATTER WHAT.
We let other factors become more important than Bhagti. What factors are they? Here are some ones we remember:
- worried what others think of us, when we first started doing Rahras we were in our room at University. We remember a knowck at the door
from our friend, we quickly shoved the Gutka (prayer book) into the top draw to hide it, and answered the door like and never mentioned we pray.
- when we were going to Gurdwara, we got involved with groups - at first it was great to find young like minded people,
but then our relgious differences and politics got in the way and we got sick of it all, and went away from them and from making any further spiritual efforts.
- when we were so inspired by our first spritual mentor in Southall, we were ready to do anything for him like he was Guru Nanak ji and we were Bhai Lehna ji,
he helped us so much spiritually - even expereincing the Divine Light and merging into Dhan Baba Nanak ji's feet,
but in the end he borrowed alot of money but broke his promise to repay it. SANT ONLY HAS HIS WORD.
SANT'S WORD IS EVEN HONOURED BY GOD - That's how precious it is. We believed his word, he didn't. That was his mistake,
but our mistake was we used that as an excuse to get angry, to think bad of him, and unfortunately decided we want nothing to do with religion
and so called spiritual people. We went into maya, into chasing wordly comforts for the next 8 years.
But our state of mind went into hell. We couldnt' sit and meditate anymore, we were full of hatred
for some old uncle that abused alot of kids in our community growing up. We felt like a failure in chasing worldy desires as well.
Now and again we remembered how much peace and love we used to feel when doing bhagti, and couldn't believe where we had now
ended up.
- Even coming onto this path, after a few months of building our faith and trust with Dassan Dass ji, we were constantly being pulled back by our
family and religious community , really being pulled back by wanting their approval. So we found some excuse and slandered baba ji who we never
had even met but just read something about which we didnt like. Our father and religious community were happy we were back. But, we
inside couldnt stop crying. Inside us the light at the end of the tunnel , the way out of our hell, just closed up again. We felt like how
will we ever get out of this horrible place we are in? So it was at that point we prayed to God, "we trust You, you sent us Baba ji,
we will follow, if we end up wasting this life, then YOU have to save us in next life, but we are NEVER leaving this again even if we lose our
family, lose our religious community's respect, NO MATTER WHAT."
We went to see Baba ji and personally apologised and prayed silently as we kissed his feet.
"firat firat prabh aayia pario tao sarnai.
Nanak kee prabh benti apanee bhagti laai.
romaing and wandering I have come to Your shelter,
Nanak's humble request is to keep me in doing Your Bhagti."
And we prayed, "Baba ji may we NEVER FALL BACK AGAIN."
And even after that next few years there were hard times due to our karma with family and sangat, and Namjeevan ji even phoned Baba ji
once and said "I am worried about Harjit" and Baba ji told her, "dont worry, Harjit can never fall back now."
And Pritam Anad Ji also told us a few times recently that no one can rob our Bhagti now.
Even now we went to See Baba ji and we asked Baba ji please forgive that old abuser in our community.
We even asked Dassan Dass ji please forgive our spiritual mentor, we dont want anything back from him due to karma,
We forgave them both years ago, just bless them as well.
So this is how when we get overwhelmed by something or someone, instead of going into slandering, hurt and hatred mode.
Just accept it was karma, forgive them, trust God will give them whatever they deserve due to Law of Karma.
Come back to peace of mind ASAP and keep doing your bhagti. Obviously if the spiritual mentor you love breaks your heart as happened to us,
then you will hate doing any bhagti as they got you started on it. But, no, keep doing your Bhagti, never stop NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS.
bhagti is yours and yours alone, Bhagti goes with you, Bhagti gives you peace of mind, Bhagti keeps you out of hell state of mind.
Bhagti is loving devotional worship of God Himself, so never stop loving HIM not matter what happens.
All we wanted to say to Sangat ji is that no matter what happens around you, even if the person or spiritual mentor you love the dearest betrays you,
even if your whole family dies, even if you lose use of all your body, NEVER LET ANYTHING OR ANYONE STEAL YOUR BHAGTI.
Always keep doing your bhagti as NUMBER ONE priority.
Dassan Dass ji has given us that in ardas, "bless me with naam, seva and bhagti."
God Bless you all
Dust of your feet
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