We went to a wedding on saturday morning ji. We saw alot of our old "Amrit-dhari" sangat. We felt a bit anxious on meeting them again as they may feel hurt or offended by our cutting our hair or coming onto this path With Guru ji's kirpa we just washed their feet in our heart for 2 hrs whilst sitting in the packed sangat as the wedding went on.
We felt alot of love and compassion for them all, we even went very close to feeling love and light again on our face. When the speeches started we got up and walked out past 600 pairs of eyes. We just looked at the floor ahead of us and did our Simran. Just our own paranoia they are looking at us! They didn't do or say anything bad to us, but our own mindmade us feel like the outcaste, the low one , they were the tribe , we were the dirty one on the outside. So, first of all our mind spent some time trying to make itself feel better by looking for faults in them , "they are proud of religion, they don't even close their eyes, they are here just to socialise and so on." But with guru ji's kirpa, we washed their feet in our heart and felt love.
When we looked at them we saw were reminded of our ourself - our old self - proud of our religious uniform and turban and beard, with feelings of seucrity because we were part of the Sikh youth tribe. But, now we were the outcaste and have no tribe. Now we have Satnaam Satguru in our heart and He gives us Maan, we have no Maan so Sat Naam becomes our Maan.
Then an old friend came rushing down to meet us, said he had been praying ot meet us and had been shown our face in his vision so he knew how we looked now. He had a lot of love for us then he started getting emotional and cried on seeing we have cut hair and trimmed beard. We massaged his back behind the hirdha area - to take his pain. He told us about all the Brahmgianis he has met - he even met Baba ji in canada several times in the 1990s when Baba ji was doing his Bhagti at the Gurudwara. He told us of western european Sikhs he has meditated in the forests with for 6 hrs doing mool mantr and how he has taken them on yatras (pilgrimages). He told us of a 113 year old brahmgiani Hari Singh ji near Baba Bakala who was absolutely amazing – a Pooran Khalsa inside and Nihang on the outside. He recommended us to go and meet him if we are ever in India.
He asked us to start doing Seva of sikh students with him again at universities.
We realised that he has been doing sangat of brahmgianis for so many years, but not become brahmgiani yet, and is doing preaching off his own back. We realised 5 years ago with Baba ji's kirpa that we are not authorised to do any preaching at all until we become Brahmgiani and are authorsed by our Brahmgiani. So at that time we stopped doing discourses in the Gurdwara and running sikhi classes and started doing Seva of getting Baab Ji's Brahmgian out into the world , rather than our own articles and writings.
We also realised after listenting to our old friend that we can meet a hundred Brahmgianis and do simran with them, but other than gettin a few psychic powers and ego of them, we do not become Jiwan Mukat - liberated. Why? Because we don't give our head, we don't surrender to them. If we find just one Brahmgiani we are so blessed. Then all we need to do is our head at their feet like we have found the feet of God Himself, then He will transform us into Himself. And as long as we stayed focused on the Seva and Hukam of that Brahmgiani then we dont get ditracted by other people who want us to join them in doing unauthorised Seva in the name of Sikhi.
We were the same as our friend before we come on this humble path, we only saw ourself in him. He is great, he is doing seva and simran and sangat, we wanted to fcus on his good qualities so we touched his feet. That is what we have learnt on this path, the humble way is the best way, if we have spent all our life meeting Brahmgianis and still not learnt to touch the feet of at least the Guru' Sikhs then ego hasn't gone.
Thanks to Baba ji, Dassan Dass ji and Baba Nanak Guru Gobind Singh ji. Thanks to the jewels and diamonds in the treasure chest of Guru Granth Sahib ji and thanks to all of the Sants and Brahmgianis.
Dust of your feet,
Harjit
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