satnaam satroop satguru ji , satsangat ji, dandauth bandhana ji
Dassan Das ji's articles stress many, many times that Karta Purakh is the One and Only Doer.
Really, a foolish and stupid sutubborn headed one like me cannot comprehend this. If God is doing everything then how can we chose what we do? "Karmi apo apanee ke neray ke dhoor ..our deeds are our own, some go closer to God some go further away?" Guru Nanak Dev Ji in Jap Ji.
So this week with guru ji's kirpa we have been trying to hard to do more simran , amritvela (early morning rising), giving daswand (tenth) and bringing in good qualities. But again this stupid and sutbborn donkey mind of mine has been hitting a brick wall. Getting irritable and shouting at family due to lack of patience - bringing in good qualities is not easy for an egotist like me.
Yesterday with guru ji's blessings we resolved not to get angry and shout at family no matter how many times the little one says, "NO! NO! NO!" when we ask her to do something we want but she doesnt want. We resolved to say it once and let it go upto God, but shouting is no longer allowed (it did work, she changed her mind in her own time). Also on the way home, yesterday God reminded us of the shabad Akhan Jor from JapJi sahib, we read this parrot fashion for over 20 years almost every day and never truly understood it. But yesterday it started making more sense, which we would like to share with the sangat what we understood (you may understand it differently , that is fine too)
akhan jor chupay na jor
jor na mangan deh na jor
jor na jeevan maran na jor
jor na raaj mal man sor
jor na surti gian vichar
jor na jugti shutay sansar
jis hath jor kar vekhay soi
nanak utam necha na koi.
First of all I always read it like Guru Nanak Dev ji was telling me that we have no power to speak or not, no power to live or die, no power to beg or donate, no power to rule with maya headaches, no power to understand the divine wisdom, no power to find the method to escape maya. Only God has the power in his hands, Nanak says that no one is high or low.
But as I with gurus blessings, was singing it with love , the realisation came that it wasn't a distant Guru Nanak telling me about a far off God, like a preacher standing at the front of the congregation telling us about God's glory. No, this time it felt like my own soul who was telling me something. My soul through these words was telling me that it had the real power. It was the divine power source. If the soul power wasnt there I wouldnt be able to do anything at all - not speak, not stay silent, not beg or give, not live or die, not understand divine wisdom or find any methods to reach God. My own soul was telling me that it had the real divine power and it is , was and will always be watching me.
So our very personal God, Karta Purakh, our own soul has all the divine power, and because of that power we can function in the world. But, when we function without any recognition of the true power running us we are living in the illusion of ego. And in ego we do the deeds that take us away from God - further away from realising this soul power inside us. However, doing simran means we are making efforts to remember this divine soul power within us. By remembering that Truth we go closer to God , the one and Only Doer within us.
This morning before doing simran Guru enabled me to acknowledge that this soul is the real power without whom "I" cannot do anything. That all our simran and bhagti (devotion) was due to Gur Prasad - god's grace. That Gurprasad was pulling us to realise our soul, pulling us out of ego running in maya's terrible mind ocean. And simran was good, much more peaceful and much more enjoyable.
And in my day, if I acknowledge this divine life force in the food I eat, in the people I meet and in all of nature, then that is Simran, that is remembrance of the Truth that "Sat Naam Karta Purakh" is the one and Only Doer, not me, not my ego, not my HAU-MAI ("I"-"ME").
thankyou for reading,
dust of your feet
God bless us all
Harjit
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